day 16: fluid

May 15

May 15 day 16: fluid

Sarah Weeldreyer

poetry, Writing

to go with the flow

to accept unseen power

to become fluid

**a haiku for you, may you write like the foo'.**

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"There is something infinitely healing in the repeated refrains of nature—the assurance that dawn comes after night, and spring after winter." #rachelcarson I took a windy walk on a familiar trail the other day and was reminded that things carry on. Always changing, healing, adapting, growing. I feel grateful to be able to return to the same wild places as I progress on my journey forward. It's nice to see the changes and be reminded of my strength. Keep moving forward. Keep breathing. Keep doing the next right thing. It'll get different, it always does. 💚 #movingforward #progressnotperfection #justdothenextrightthing #strongmama #warrior2 #virabhadrasana2 #forest #outdooryogi #keepbreathing #healing #recovery #lovewarrior #💚 #wildwoman

That face when you're all ready to snuggle into bed and you see a massive spider scuttle way too quickly underneath it. #notok #burnitdown #notrelaxing #nowillneversleep #sendhelp😂 #arachnophobia #reasonablefear #fuckthatshit #mycatsareslackers

Found some time to cruise my favorite 8 mile loop today after the big bear's soccer game. It was wonderful to ramble. The leaves are changing, the wind was howling, it smelled of summer and warm pine needles and there were only a handful of other humans. Felt like church. 💚 #hikingishealing #mothernatureisbeautiful #trailheadcity #trailtime #selfcaresaturday #adventuremama #sunshine #iloveithere #mybigbackyard #pnw #wearetheluckiest #getoutside #naturetherapy

I had a very new experience tonight, leading a huge high school choir group through some short sequences and some pranayama. It was really fun, and a little scary, but I just kept thinking, if even one of these amazing humans walks away from this experience with even an inkling of a hint at what these tools could contribute to their lives, it's a full success. Grateful for the opportunity to be of service. Grateful for supportive bosses. Grateful for creating and nurturing community. Grateful. #gratitude #rightwhereimsupposedtobe #totallydoingit #yogateacher #futureyogis #dosomethingnew #justbreathe #letitgo #letitflow #community

Nidraaaaahhh Come join me on Fridays at noon for some deep relaxation. It's the perfect way to end the week, or start the weekend. Either way, it's winning. 😊💚 #nidra #yoga #meditation #issaquah #familyowned #wellness #healing #restandrelax #yoganap

"She decided to free herself, dance into the wind, create a new language. And birds fluttered around her, writing “yes” in the sky." #Monique Duval It doesn't ever get easier, life. But I promise if you stick around and keep trying to do the next right thing, it will get different. 💚

This has been the busiest week of my teaching career so far, but I am still smiling! I feel strong. I feel like I made a couple of leaps as an instructor. I feel like I helped a couple people. 💚 I feel like I'm doing IT! And it's real good. I'm tired, I've used way too many words (introvert problem), but I'm glowing and grateful. #wearetheluckiest #yogateacher #forreals #gratitude #grateful #igetbywithalittlehelpfrommyfriends #happyhiker #happyplace #pnwoutdoorwomen #pnw #trailheadcity #💚 #huggermugger #yogaeverywhere

A new moon. A new season. A new stage of life. Did some emotional heavy lifting with the kiddos last night which kept me up late. Had a great day, several good talks with good ladies, helped the boys through some learning and some choring, taught a couple of classes with some nice people, had my first experience with some not super feedback (it's mostly just a communication thing, but my shitty committee pipes right up reminding me how I'm not good enough). And then I breathe, I hug my babies tight, and brush teeth and read stories and pack lunches, because life! Sometimes it's hard and painful. Sometimes it's breezy and beautiful. Sometimes it's uncomfortable and boring. But it's all good! And I say these things because once in the not too distant past I didn't know them. I thought it was supposed to be rosy, and gleeful, and always happy, or I was doing it wrong. And it wasn't, and I drank. But guess what, it's not. It's all the things, all the time, and we get to practice doing them so we can do them differently. And now I'm going to sleep because I'm exhausted and I get to do it again tomorrow. #someoneisrambling #change #brutiful #lifeisnotwhatnot #gratitude #grateful #wearetheluckiest #movingforward #mynameissarah #andimanalcoholic #recovery #youareenough #dothenextrightthing #laughalittlecryalittle #lifeis #seasonschange #pnw #fall

The face you make when you have to pee super bad and soon as you sit down you realize your kid has peed all over the seat AND the floor. Heck of a way to start a Sunday! 🤪🤦 #boymom #momproblems #boygerms #ewww #goodthinghescute #neveradullmoment #momlife

My sunflowers have finally bloomed! That means there's 4 more weeks of summer weather right? Like a floral groundhog! 😁💚🤞🏼 #cheerful #sunflower #brightsunshinyday #justkidding #itrained #gardener #gardenlove #ilikedirt #ilikegreenthings

Last yoga hike of the season was a full success. Now time to focus on some learning and more teaching and biznass stuff. #ilovemyjob

Leftover summer tan lines. A nice layer of dirt from hiking in flip flops. Strong and flexy from plenty of yoga. I like my weird feet. 😁💚 #dirtbag #flipflops #minimalistfootwear #wildwoman #thesefeetweremadeforwalking #timeforapedi #sotiredsohappy

But how do you let them go? Especially to the person who hurt you so deeply that sometimes only a scratch makes your heart bleed again. How do you hear them speak their truth, leak their hearts into your shirt, bare their souls when it feels scary? And then believe him when he calls it crocodile tears. How is it they can tell aunty that it's ok that he's gone, he was never really there much anyways? And yet his reality can only tell everyone how unreasonable I am, how sensitive, how not sane, to insist that they be given a voice. I can't shield them forever. But maybe just a little longer. And when he remembers how he hates the late nights and no sleep, or when he disappears for weeks on end again, or when they get deprioritized and inconvenient once more, I will still be here. Breathing. Expanding. Waiting. 💚 #mamabear #healing #trauma #narcissismrecovery #fuckthatshit #keepbreathing #yogakids #boymom #zenkids #opengentleheartbigfuckingfence #nope #norightanswer #justdothenextrightthing #breathe #showthemhow #youhavenopoweroverme #meditate #littleyogis

Took the boys to the #seattleartmuseum today. We talked about the people who were here before us, and what happened to them, and why it's important to learn about the painful, awful shit from the past (present) so that you can be a better human for the future. It felt significant. #makeitright #knowbetterdobetter #healing #teaching #edwardcurtis #photomagic #grateful

Public service announcement. #wearewater #gowiththeflow but #beprepared #💚 #moonmama

None of this is new, I'm only regurgitating things I've learned to be true, but here's the thing... 1. We are all "broken". At least for some time, at some point in our lives. And there's quotes around that because if we are all supposed to be a certain thing how can it be wrong? 2. People who don't seem broken are possibly the most broke. No way to know for sure. Unless... 3. We should all share our brokenness! That way we start to realize that we're not alone, but that also, we are totally normal! And humans love to feel like they are part of, we are very social animals. Let's make tshirts or something (hats? Jewelery?) to identify our categories of brokenness. (My list would be pretty long, but I'll just shrink the font). That will make it way easier to find the other people who "get" our certain brands of broken. Let's stop pretending we are something we're not and start identifying the broken bits so we can start to heal them! Let's keep talking about it and sharing about it and writing about it and crying about it and breathing about it and doing whatever we need to do to take care of ourselves. The world needs you! The other broken people need you! I need you! And if you are deep in the shit and none of this makes sense know that's ok too. Keep breathing, keep trying, keep listening, and know that you are love. #wecandohardthings #wedonthavetodoitalone #recovery #healing #dothenextrightthing #onlyloveisreal #selfcare #love #💚 #wearetheluckiest #nevernotbroken #youareworthy #youcanandyouwill #onedayatatime #fuckperfect #brutiful

Because I am a glutton for punishment but also for yummy things that taste like summer all year long. #webejammin #pbandj #canning #canit #summerberries #yummy #mykitchenisamess #iknowwhatyouregettingforchristmas #💚 #oldschoolskills

I accidentally learned the other day, via a @humansofny post on Facebook, that the people of the world all have sayings about this. I stumbled onto it, and then stayed because it felt like a moment, and then I wrote a bunch down because again, moment. The Irish say "what's for you won't pass you." The Scottish, "what's for ye won't go by ye." In Jamaica (this one's my favorite), "what's for ya can't un-for ya." Romanians say "what's yours is put away for safekeeping." In Mexico it's, "what's meant for you, no one can take away." Haiti has, "what's for you, no river can take away." Malaysia, "if it is your heart destiny, it will never go anywhere else." There were others, and apologies if I've gotten any of these ones wrong, but do you see it!! You are right where you're supposed to be! Keep moving forward, what's for you is waiting. 💚 #whatsforyouwillnotpassyou #sharedwisdom #truth #inanylanguage #love #rightwhereyouresupposedtobe #keepmovingforward #glennondoylemelton #recovery #healing #bebrave #youcandothis Originally from @peacefulmindpeacefullife

I can't get untired lately. Probably an iron thing or a diet thing or a too much coffee thing. But also, everything makes me cry lately, but mostly the inspiring stuff and the happy stuff and the powerful, "humans are excellent" stuff. I'm not sure what's going on, but I can tell you one thing, I don't hide from my big feels anymore. And I see them, and I experience them, and sometimes I marinate in them while pondering what to do about them, and sometimes I breath them away. If you're doing it right, humaning is hard. But the great news is that humans were made to do hard things. #onestepatatime #onward #wecandohardthings #allthefeels #keepmovingforward #recovery #healing #youarerightwhereyouneedtobe #youcandothis

I'm up too late (again). I ate cookies for dinner (also again). I will be tired in the morning (always). But the little one needed extra back rubs and hugs and needed to cry about some stuff. And some work things needed finishing. And the laundry needed folding. And I'm grateful for my life and all of these moments. And THAT is a miracle. 💚 #progressnotperfection #keepmovingforward #dothenextrightthing #amothersworkisneverdone #gratitude #wearetheluckiest #grateful #iamloved #recovery #healing #singleparenting

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