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I'm Sarah Weeldreyer! Thank you for joining me on my adventures discovering the natural world and discovering Truths through mindfulness and brave, open-hearted, simple living. 

6 months, again

6 months, again


I was in the midst of my 'Going to the Water'-Spiritual Discovery Adventure 2016 (which is officially what I'm calling it now), when I realized that Sept 27th represented my 6 month new sobriety birthday. Because the women who brought me up in AA taught me right, and it was Friday night, and I was alone in a strange town, I went and found a meeting. As is customary, they provided me with a coin, and some wisdom.

The topic was 'perspective'. So perfect that I may have laughed out loud.

And then I sat there for an hour thinking about all the ways that my perspective has changed over the last 6 months. Remembering the times lately when mindfulness of my perspective has helped me get through the hard things.

I reflected on how this big, scary, unwelcome life change has become an opportunity for growth and courage and so much important learning. How the shame and fear about relapse and addiction have mellowed into kindness and acceptance and a gentling towards myself. How lack of control and feelings of victimization have morphed into motivation and intuition. Anger and pain are melting into gratitude and empathy.


We experience these big moments in life and suddenly things that others have told us or things we've read or heard in a song, they make sense in a deeper more meaningful way. Because now it's real, True, personal. It's like parenthood, there's no way to imagine or fully describe or prepare for being a parent. But once you get it, there's something inside of you that changes, clicks into place, like a puzzle piece or a new gear. It's like a level up!

And the only way to get to that next level is to walk through the big, scary, unwelcome stuff as best we can. To let those hard and awful times strip away what's not important and help us focus on what is. Not to run away from the pain, but to try and become comfortable with the uncomfortable and to embrace the perspective that what I'm seeing right now is not how I will always see it, not what it will always be, not the end of the story. 

It might suck, but it's important, and let's see what comes next!

Towards the end of that meeting, a quiet voice shared, 'I like the perspective that am the sky, and all these things I can't control are just the weather.' It felt like a fucking truth bomb, and I'm going to borrow it for awhile. I'm going to keep doing hard things and learning and growing and feeling, but I will try to hold the perspective that I am bigger than and more beautiful with all of them. One day at a time.


This divorce, this pain, these hurt people, these difficult decisions are the wind and the clouds and the rain. They will change and pass and return in different patterns. But I will always remain the sky. I am unchangeable. I am me. So let's find out who she really is and see how very strong she can be.

Oneonta Gorge

Oneonta Gorge

Wah-kee-na Falls

Wah-kee-na Falls